Starting to get ticked off

Well its been over a month since I turned the big 50, and has been a mix of working hard and playing hard!

I have only ticked off a couple of things on my #50thingsb4Im50 list, but have made progress on several others – good things take time ya know!   This first 3 months is focusing on fitness goals, so that I will feel more comfortable doing the other stuff later.  Plus, I’ve set a goal to get all my 2019 NZ contract work completed by 30 June, so have been head down bum up getting that done – then I can relax for the most of the remainder of the year.  I’ve also listed my apartment on AirBnB from 10 June so I have to fit in getting it finished!

Here is a brief video summary of progress

#1 Sleep out on the Reef 6.3.19

My boss had a student doing a night dive so we went out to the Marineworld pontoon on Moore Reef, Cairns.  Had to pack dinners and snacks to suit my keto diet, get my stretcher tent etc all carted on to the boat along with the dive gear, and we were ready for 2 days, 1 night out under the stars.

I’m out there loads as that is the boat I work on with students, but being on Marineworld and diving the lagoon after all the sometimes 200+ guests have left was pretty cool….until it wasn’t.  The sunset was amazing, and so peaceful out there. 58380537_592428794610733_2510405206236200960_n

We did our planned night dive and it was absolutely awesome – the critters that came out to play at night were so different that the usual suspects we see there – I did expect differences, but I was amazed at the different types of crabs, and seeing an Epaulette shark was pretty cool.

We had a couple of ‘quieties’ after the dive and chilled out on the top deck under the stars, talking shit as ya do.  As it got dark, we got treated to an amazing electrical storm over the mainland…..way off in the distance….and it went on for ages.

 

Hit the sack about 10/11pm.   Me in my little cocoon of the stretcher tent, my boss and student on air beds.58570530_423257958238622_3034820794682179584_n

So when did it become uncool (ok, admittedly yeah, it was kinda cool).  Oh at about 1-2am!  I woke to the sounds of winds swirling around outside my little cocoon, and some colourful words being yelled by my boss.  We scrambled to get their beds down to the lower deck so they were sheltered from the rains that had just started.  Once they were settled I went back up top to my wee haven.

For what seemed like 2-3 hours I lay there huddled in my stretcher tent, winds swirling about, rain pelting down, thunder and lighting roaring above me.   I could hear the chain d-links on the shade sails rattling – apparently that happens at 30+ knots of wind – but worse was the sound of deck chairs collapsing and sliding around the deck around me, how close were they? was anything above me likely to break and fall?

Then it went dead quiet for a half hour or so before it amped up again so the eye of the storm must have gone straight overhead.

I stayed huddled in my wee cocoon – not sure if I should get out and risk being hit by something or stay huddled.   Heck, I was toasty warm and dry so I stayed…but secretly hoped the wind wasn’t so cyclonic that would lift me and my little cocoon up and dump us in the ocean – I have 3 zippers to undo if I had to get out in a hurry!!  Common sense prevailed and I knew that wouldn’t happen so the Bose noise cancelling headphones went on and I slipped into lala land.  What a wild night lol

In the morning we went for an early dive to explore one of the nearby bommies before the crowds arrived for the day.

Looking forward to giving this experience another go – sans the storm!

#2 Full body mole check 5.3.19

I actually started this process just before my birthday.  I’m a skin doctors worst nightmare – redheaded, sun and ocean lover, work on the reef, and spent my childhood summers swimming in the local pools or at the beach, often sans sunscreen.  Its a no-brainer that I’m a likely candidate for skin cancers.

I had had a dark spot emerge on my lower lip, noticed it maybe 6 months earlier, and over time, it seemed to move or get bigger.  It was so dark in places that it was still visible through a lipstick.

Figured I had better face the music and get it checked out.  My doc said “its got to be removed”, but referred me to his colleague who specialised in skin cancers, being facial he didn’t want to just cut it out like he would for a small spot on the arm.  The colleague said, ‘yep, its gotta go” – but again, being facial, he referred me to the specialist skin cancer clinic to do it the most effective way since they do facial removals all the time.

You guessed it, the specialists also said its gotta go, so my last hope of keeping the face I was born with was dashed.   Not that its amazing or anything, but it is me.  Questions started racing – how long would I have to stay out of the water!!!?? Would it feel weird?  Would it be cancerous and actually already spread further than what was visible (yes I had “Dr Googled” lip cancer and the results were quite worrying)?  What was I gonna look like with a big chunk of lip taken out?.    All those expected thoughts raced through my head over the next week – yes in that order haha my immediate concern was how long could I not dive cos the 6 weeks out when I had pneumonia drove me nuts!

Anyhoo, needn’t have worried.  The specialist consulted with her senior on best method and they decided to do a 5mm punch biopsy to test the worst part of it, then come back and take the rest out if needed, but they were both confident it wasn’t malignant.   Hurt like a mofo for a week, but came back clear so the last little bit remains.    They then did the full body mole check and I had to have about 10 suspect spots burned off but otherwise all good…

Warning to others – get the checks done, and don’t leave new spots months before getting them checked…and of course WEAR SUNSCREEN, ALWAYS – and REAPPLY constantly – thats my biggest problem, forgetting to reapply after getting wet.

Other Adventures/Progress

Had an awesome trip down to Brisbane/Gold Coast 8-18 March.   Rented an AirBnB apartment right on the riverbank with spectacular views for the first night and had a couple of my favourite Aussies come to stay so we could paint the town red on the friday night.  We were joined by another favourite Aussie for a wee bit, but he was too scared to cut loose in town with the girls and bowed out early haha

KL & I polished off a bottle of the delicious Jinzu gin between us, and it showed, with young-gun KL not making it out after dinner to hit the town.   We escorted her back to the apartment then Jo and I hit the town.  Who would have thought two 50+ year olds would need to carry ID!   Couldn’t get into any pubs without it so the Casino it was – and we danced there until 4am then stumbled back to the apartment to wake up KL.   Not a bad effort by us (older) birds and a hilarious night had by all.58375754_606203433187086_8454622368894025728_n

Tiger Shark!!

We were all booked on a dive trip with Brisbane Scuba – highly recommended operator, check them out on Facebook – the next afternoon.  Cementco wreck in the arvo, then a night dive on Flinders Reef.   Well, currents didn’t play the game so the wreck wasn’t a goer, but we did two beautiful dives on Flinders Reef – and OMG WE SAW A TIGER SHARK on the night dive!

I was assessing KL on her navigation skills for her course, and she was getting us back to the boat nicely.   I saw a shadow in the distance, and thought, “nice’ a reef shark”.  Then it circled again and I thought “coooool. thats a bloody big reef shark”.  As is typical of sharks, it circled again and my excitement went through the roof as I saw those tell-tale beautiful stripes on its side and thought “farrrrken ace! Thats no reef shark, thats a TIGER”!

I turned around and signalled to the girls by alternately signalling the hand on top of head for shark, the scratching lines across my forearm for tiger shark and fistpumps!    No sooner had that happened then it was gone, scared away by another group of divers that had spotted it and went screaming towards it.    No pics by anyone unfortunately – my gopro had flooded on first dive 🙁

One of the girls wanted to get back in the boat so I took us back straight away so she could start her safety stop with others, then I signalled to KL I wanted her to do some recipricals – lol any excuse to go out and look for the tiger again – alas we never saw it again.  So thrilling, and my first tiger outside of the fairly controlled environment of Beqa Lagoons shark dive team.   (That’s where I took the photo below shared just cos I’m so excited I saw one on the night dive but gutted I didn’t get a photo of it)big mumma

Sunday 10th we all did a volunteer dive with Environmental Divers, doing the Clean Up Australia Day dive at the Gold Coast seaway.  Big haul of rubbish and fishing lines extracted from the ocean and a great day had by all.

I then went up to Mooloolaba with Lisa to dive the HMAS Brisbane again, great dive, great operator (Sunreef), and we followed that with a dive in the Mooloolah river, entering at La Balsa park which I had heard about being a great nudibranch dive.  The only thing disappointing about it was I didn’t have the camera – was amazing and so many nudis!

Spent the rest of the week chilling, and catching up on some work, then me and more of my favourite Aussies went to dive Julian Rocks with Blue Bay Divers (another great operator).   Finished up the afternoon at the Gold Coast seaway to finish assessing the remaining skills for KL and Tracey’s navigations and Stress and Rescue courses.

50 things list progress

Diet – been going well on my Keto plan, down 10kgs of the 15-20 I want to lose.   Jogging every second day, training for the upcoming 10km fun run I entered.

Movies – once a month I want to go to the movies – enforced relaxation, March was the Ocean Film Festival 2019 and it was awesome.  Particularly loved (and could watch for hours) this clever little 3-5min short film of drawing patterns in the sand and them getting washed away, then re-drawing…it was mesmerising.

Fiction Books – haven’t allowed myself to ‘waste’ time reading fiction for years, so my goal this year is to change that and read at least one a month.  But, I actually spent a lot of time driving and KL & Tracey had put me on to podcasts – you know that little app that comes with the iphone that you dont know what to do with – well I am hooked.

Been listening to loads, and if you are interested, my favourite ones to date are:

The Osher Gunsberg Podcast – I subscribed to his as am loving his interviews, but my favourite by far has been “Creating Lasting Happiness with Eiji Han Shimizu” Eiji was involved in making the ‘Happy’ movie.  The interview made me think, Im going to hunt out the movie, and he was amusing – and we have the same favourite english phrase “Fuck It!” So versatile in its use.

Wild Ideas Worth Living – presented by Shelby Stanger – another one I have subscribed to.  Also interviews with different amazing people, people who have had a crazy idea, like wanting to ski every ski mountain in the world, or who up sticks and sold everything to go sailing somewhere (much ike my good friends Aron & Craig have done – @arongaladventures ).  Looking forward to listening to more.

Volunteering – well I did the volunteer clean up day on the GC, but it was a dive with my mates there, so Im not ticking that off my list.   Signing up today to be a volunteer on a reef restoration project in Cairns and that definitely counts!  Looking forward to that if I get accepted.

so…….

it has been an awesome first month or so, well on track for several goals, loads of work done, and loads of fun.  As usual, I ‘plan’ to post more regularly in future, so the updates won’t be so long, but well, history says I probably wont haha

Favourite saying/Quote of the Month:

“There’s no such thing as negative feedback.  Its either invalid and tells you something about the person who gave it, or it is valid and you can learn from it”

Who said it?   Cant recall exactly but it was one of the guests on the Wild Ideas podcast.  I was driving up the East Coast at the time so didnt take a note of which podcast it was, but its a phrase that stuck in my mind.

 

 

 

#50thingsb4Im51

So, I turned 50 today.  Don’t feel it by a long shot, but there it is.

I don’t celebrate my birthday on my actual birthday anymore, 5 March or 5/3, as I shared that birthday with my beautiful Mum for so many years and since she passed its just not the same.  Besides which, its a shitty time of the year having lost my Mum and my Grandad (in different years) around this time – right on my birthday.   So, I celebrate according to American dating – 3/5 or May 3rd.

But, 5 March will kick off my challenge. “50 things to do before Im 51!”  Ive made a whole list – theres nearly 100 – and got some ideas from friends too, of loads of things to do and see, or try this year.  They are goals I have, or they are conquering fears, or just plain old thinking screw it who cares how I look or what people think of me Im gonna give that a go!

I even got a bit crafty and made some boards for on my walls with all my challenges written out (and to add to) that will be pasted onto the ‘completed’ boards once done.

So, this year Im going to jump out of that perfectly good aeroplane, jump off that perfectly good bridge, dive to 50 mtrs, add some scuba certifications to my skills, wear a bikini for the first time in my life!  Im also going to start looking after myself better, get into tip top shape now that I finally have my health under better control (who knew that all these years I have had a dairy intolerance and the things it was doing to me!!).

So, it all starts now!  follow #50thingsb4Im51 to check on my progress.

 

Coming back from holiday with new goals

Well, I had a fantastic week in Vanuatu with a great bunch of people, mostly from Brisbane, and only my bosses and I from Cairns, and 3 from Brissy crew that I already knew.   Highly recommend joining trips with other randoms as you meet some great new people that way.  Heres us (minus 1 missing) at the airport awaiting departure, Im tucked away hiding at the middle back.

Brisbane Scuba Vanuatu group

(will post more about the trip and dives over the next few days as I go through the photos and load a trip report).

Anyhoo,  I came home determined with new goals.

Absolutely loved exploring the Pres. Coolidge shipwreck – knew I would as I love wrecks, but the depths worried me a little – and by the end of the week we got to the engine room and about 45mtrs.

We also did the USS Tucker wreck and a lovely reef called Mal Mal E reef.  But it is the wreck dives that excite me more.

Problem 1:  most wrecks are quite deep, and as I have mentioned in a previous post I have put back on a lot of weight I lost pre-diving, so I am obese, pushing 50, not super fit, like a drink and pretty much tick off most of the risk factors for decompression illnesses!!

Problem 2:  I am a recreational diver level (albeit an experienced one with 800 or so dives to date and an AOW instructor) so I am only certified to 40 mtrs depth, and while travelling if something happens deeper than that my insurance wont cover me unless I am that deeper depth with an instructor on a course.

Whats a gal gonna do?  Set some goals to solve those problems and stick to them – im finally in the right headspace to do so, and aside from a pesky cold I picked up in Vanuatu (go figure!) Im almost back to health after months of cold & flu and then pneumonia.

So, here they are, thrown out in to the ether, to remind me what I have to stick to!

  1. Get back to my daily walk up the Red Arrow track here – great for cardio and training for climbing Walsh’s Pyramid which my boss and I have decided to do by August 2018.  Its a beast and needs to be conquered – said I would do it before I left Cairns when I arrived 2 years ago, and my boss has been here 20yrs and hasnt done it yet.   Also need to do some strength/resistance training 3 x a week.walshs-pyramid-far-north-queens-19855_1024x768

2. Reduce (not eliminate – Im too old to start stopping things I enjoy in life) my alcohol intake, and watch my food intake.  Im not going on any ‘diet’, lifes too short for that shit,  but I am going back to recording my food intake on my app which always makes me conscious of calories in vs calories out.  My motto here, and when I successfully lost weight previously was “if I can track it, I can eat/drink it” and as long as calories out over the week exceeded the calories in, with a good mix of macro-nutrients generally, then that is good enough.

3. Go up to Lake Eacham more often and practice deep dives, where I max out my deco times, and have to practice those extra deco stops.  Also do some extended range courses and sidemount training before this time next year as I am looking at a trip to Truk Lagoon in 2019.

4. Schedule my time better, ensuring I get at least 3 billable hours of work done a day, exercise time, scuba study time, and relaxation time, plus a good 7 hrs sleep.

Things will hopefully then start falling in to place to get me diving deeper, more safely and confidently.

Id say ‘wish me luck’ but it is determination, right choices and willpower that will achieve these, not luck.

When you are too tired to travel..

What?  too tired to go on a holiday? Surely not!

But, yep, never have I felt so in need of a break, and its been a few months, or i should say a few too many months since my last trip, but I am finally about to embark on another adventure.  This one has been on my ‘Must Do’ list for a while.

I have been land-locked for a while, very busy with renovations for a new Air BnB apartment my brother and I have bought – it came up awesome and is booking well.  Then we managed to acquire the apartment directly above mine and finally ‘Leadfoot Lottie’ as we call her has moved out and we have begun renovating that one to move into so we wont have someone else stomping their feet above me all day again.

This last weeks mission for me has been to get all the wet areas ready and specialty paints applied, so that they have 7 days to harden uninterrupted before I come back and make some final adjustments (this girl has power tools and aint afraid to use them! [Insert Tim the Toolman Taylor-like grunts here] ) so the plumber can come back and do his thing.

Add to that, its that time of the year in NZ that all we accountants dread – a tax year has just finished so we are madly getting out clients work ready to go, plus my accounts work here in Oz….so, yep, I am due on a flight at 9.40am tomorrow.  Its 11pm now and I havent packed, and am just really to shagged to care.  But my newly painted benchtops and flooring look pretty!

Where am I heading?  Vanuatu!!  Been wanting to go there for ages, to dive the President Coolidge and Million Dollar Point.  Armed with my camera and newly replaced dome port (after my recent loss to Davy Jones’ locker – damn this is an expensive hobby I have) Im going to be diving a shipwreck I have been looking forward to ever since I began diving.

Just need to pack, get some sleep and hopefully recharge in time.  One night in BrisVegas, then its island time for this chick!

Reality vs Art : Can we believe what we see?

Something that has been on my mind alot lately, as I play more and more with my camera underwater, and trying to learn how to ‘tweak’ my photos to bring back the colours, is the number of photographers who advertise on Facebook feeds for their Lightroom and Photoshop presets.

I thought these were just settings you can import to bring back the right colours and tones to images quickly and easily – as the first thing we lose as we go further underwater is the colours – so without a strobe or video light, all the photos end up in various shades of grey…not ideal, and not representative of what is there.

Thats why I use Lightroom or photoshop – I am working hard to get the in-camera photo as good as possible re focus, white balance and composition, and then in lightroom I just need to tweak to get the colours back closer to reality. Its still a photograph of what I actually saw.

As an example, my pages header photo of the school of fish in the shallows as I came back from an afternoon dive in Tulamben, the sunlight streaming down and the colour on the fish was amazing, but the photo came out rather ‘flat’ so in Lightroom, I tweaked it back to how I remembered it, I have put the original and the tweaked version side by side in the featured photo for this post – and looking at them again in this frame of mind, I can see I have bought a fraction more blue back than was real – so Im maybe just as ‘bad’…

Another example below, the turtle and wreck looked a little more ‘washed out’ in the photo than they were, so have tweaked a little to make the turtle ‘pop’ more (and an expert in Lightroom or Photoshop would probably do a way better job). Its still the same thing I actually saw.

top is original photo, bottom is tweaked in Lightroom to make the turtle ‘pop’ a little more

What has got me thinking though, is when looking at some of these presets, and I bought one to try, the package actually included various tutorials and other images, like sunsets, that you were then taught to overlay into your images. One of the tutorials show an original photo – and a nice one at that, but through all the changes made, it ended up a photo of something completely different – the girl was in a different position as he overlayed a different photo from the sequence of shots in place, he put a completely different sunset in there, and while it ended up an awesome image – it was an image of something that didnt happen.

To me, thats an artwork, not a photograph. I think they call them ‘composites’ where they are mashing several photos into one.

I guess its not hurting anyone, and if we get enjoyment out of viewing the final image whats the harm? To me, the harm is that I no longer look at a photograph and think, “wow thats awesome”, I think “wow thats awesome, but is it real?” Which is a shame I think.

If they are honest about it being a composite or artwork no harm no foul, but Ive seen various threads using this type of photo or others that I have seen being created in tutorials, and the posters on thread are congratulating the thread author on taking the “perfect shot” when they didnt actually take a photograph of that final image. What gets my goat, is that they say ‘thanks’ in the thread, as if it was real. Not “thanks, its a combination of a few photos” – which is honest – and they should be proud of the skill they have used to create the artwork.

Some of them are award winning “photographers”. Were the winning photos real or composites?

Anyhoo…thats my thoughts on it. Me, I will just keep plodding along, trying to get the shot as best I can in-camera and bring back that lost colour in post processing while retaining the integrity of the original image I saw.

What are your thoughts on photos vs artwork?

Life Really Does Begin at 40!

Im sure many people can relate. Plodding your way through life. Working your arse off to get ahead. No real time for hobbies or fun stuff and stressed to the max. That was me at 39 going on 40. I truly was working myself into an early grave.

Then something happened.

A gal pal and I decided we would go to Fiji for my 40th. We wanted to go to Beachcomber island and party like 20 year olds. We spent 3 days on Beachcomber doing just that and had a blast. Then we spent 7 nights in 5 star luxury at the Denerau Hilton. It says it all that our bar bill for 3 days on Beachcomber was the same as 7 days at the Hilton.

Beachcomber was the first time I had truly relaxed in forever, and I was out snorkelling every day and loved the ocean and all its little critters. Always have loved being in the water – must be the Pisces in me.

While back on Denerau, we attended a presentation on a time share apartment – just so we could get a free day out on the Captain Cook Tall Ship cruise, and on board was a dive team who offered introductory dives. It was only $100 and I could do it in my boardies and top so what the heck I did it.

Taking the wheel on my life-changing day trip

Loved it. Love love love love loved it!

But Houston, we have a problem. Its that I have an arse the size of Texas and there was no way, back in cold NZ waters I was going to be seen dead in a wetsuit! (Im over that ridiculous train of thought now obviously) When was I ever going to get to do this awesome scuba thing again?

Well, after about 2-3 years, my mind was finally in that ‘get healthy’ mode, I trained hard, lost 24 kgs and my reward was to learn to dive. So at 43 I was an open water diver! In a wetsuit – still looked shite but I didnt care (and you know what I also realised at this point? It didnt matter.)

That was when life really began. No longer was I working hard and stressing out to get things done, staying up all night to meet deadlines just to pay off the mortgage a bit quicker. I was still doing that at times…but to get money to pay for the next dive trip! I realised it wasnt that I didnt really “have time” for a hobby/fun stuff before, it was that I had nothing that I enjoyed so much I MADE the time for it.

Wow did I know how to relax after drinking copious amounts of Kava with Poppa Joe!

Im now 49, and have been an Open Water Instructor for about three years. Two years ago I quit my life in NZ and moved to tropical North Queensland where I work as little as possible and dive as much as possible – easy since I now work for a dive company! Quite a difference to my wasted youth working ridiculous hours as an accountant. Ive kept some of my favourite clients in NZ to work with remotely (they were all ok with my move since I didnt live nearby to them anyway), but generally live a relaxed, stress free life, just the occasional deadline to deal with

I work just enough to pay the bills and go on regular dive trips. No more, no less. I potter in home renovation which is something I love doing. I am thankful to those ‘wasted years’ though – I may have missed out on many travel and scuba experiences that would have been awesome if I was younger, but that hard work has put me in a good position today so I can now travel and dive so much more than many others get the chance to do.

This. This is living.

How to Procrastinate Like a Pro!

I think taking a year to start this blog makes me a qualified procrastinator, don’t you?

I originally set this site up to record my thoughts and experience of all the fabulous trips I had planned last year. I was going to stun the world with my photographic images of all the amazing creatures I would see, and places I would visit, where I stayed, who I met….

Well I went on those trips, no procrastination there! I had some amazing experiences – diving with 20 or more bull sharks, a few tiger sharks and lemon sharks everyday for 5 days straight while attending ‘Shark School’ being a highlight – so much so I did it again 2 months later! Later in the year I did a fabulous 7 night liveaboard in the Komodo National Park as part of a three-week Indonesian dive holiday.

I also fitted in two trips back home to New Zealand for work stuff and see family, and made a blazing trail dashing up the beautiful country moving my car from Queenstown to Whangamata in less than a week on one of those visits, and drove to the very top of the North Island to arrive at 5am and see the sunrise at Cape Reinga on another. What a year.

And, oh, what a hell load of photographs and memories that went unrecorded (I did at least get some on them on my Facebook and instagram feeds).

My intention was to document my travels, and my journey learning photography, so I had something to look back on of the progress I had made, and if notes of my experiences – good and bad – helped someone in their travel planning even better. But, I never got around to it. Story of my life. I always start dreaming of the next trip, next dive, next cup of tea, do the dreaded housework….anything but the task at hand that is as boring AF.

My name is Sue, and I am a diveaholic. Everything above water is just a surface interval I must get through and my mind is always on my next chance to be underwater. So how do I procrastinate like a pro? Easy, grab a cuppa, go sit at your desk to get started for the day.

First task? Hmm need to create a post for my works Instagram and Facebook feeds – hmm, lets see what photos I have from the dive sites (I work for a Dive Centre in Cairns). Ohhh…pretty…that was a fun day. More photos. Oh they were a cool bunch, where were they from again? oh thats right ‘Timbucmiddleofnowheretu”, lets look that up…hmmm, nope dont want to go there, but oh that looks nice, how would I get there?…oh lunchtime already? Best I eat. Righto, back at my desk. Now where was I? Shite – that report is due tomorrow, but first, lemme take a selfi….nah I dont do that, but I would have done something, anything else rather than that report.

Work can wait. Living cannot. But work is needed to fund the living so the procrastinating needs to stop…hence this first post on my blog finally getting written. Its my happy medium – still not actually doing work, but it feels like I am progressing something fun, and I intend to start scheduling in my work time to be more effective – lets see how long that lasts.

The featured photo is a classic example of why I need to blog. That hotel was an awesome place to stay, I woke up to that fabulous view in the mornings, it was a short walk to a little Warung that made the most delectable food, and all I remember is that it was in Candidasa, I can’t remember the name of it to rebook it. Had I blogged my trip, I would have that to look it up.

Next trip in T-21days. Hitting Vanuatu – Espirito Santo and the President Coolidge. Lets see if that makes it to the blog haha